Week 10 – What is Going On?

This week everything came crashing down on me.  Things are different to me now though, I seem to have a little better understanding of what is going on with me, within me.  I definitely have my work cut out for me in as far as examining every thought that crosses my mind and deciding how I will allow that thought to effect me.  Between trying to stay on top of my mental diet, no negativity, and staying on top of not verbalizing any of my opinions, holy crap, no wonder things have spiraled out of control for me.  On top of all that, Mark called me out on what do I really want and sent me back into deep thinking ‘sits’ and soul searching after I was not able to answer that question authentically.  After posting deep seated feelings and questions into the ‘Alliance’ area of our site, many wonderful ‘brothers and sisters’ reached out to me with incredible support and help.  As confused and hopeless I feel… I seem, I will not quit, I will continue my struggle to chip away at the cement layered so very thick on me because I know that there is true gold inside me somewhere.  I know in my heart that I have been placed here on earth to do something amazing and for as long as I wondered what, now is the time, and for as long as it takes, I swear that I will find my true calling…somewhere, somehow.  It is with the guidance of this incredible group that I am involved with now that I will find something that will illuminate my path to me.  What I have learned so far about myself has amazed me.  I am excited and scared as I continue on this journey.  My ‘sits’ sometimes brings things into focus for me, more times they just become a swirling sensation of thoughts, feelings, and uncontrollable waves of short lived sights that make me want to scream “what is going on with me?”  I am starting to really understand the importance of the ‘sits’ and I came across this video that I would love to share with you that deals with the importance of meditating…sitting.

Wow, did that ring true to you?  Should you be taking time out every now and then just to try to quiet yourself and see if you can make sense of the things that are going on around you?  At any point of time while you are trying to ‘sit’ or meditate, does anything become clearer to you?  Have you ever had an “aha moment?”  I hope this helps you as it has me.




Week 9 – Who Do I Want To Be?

Who am I?  How did I become who I am?  Do I like who I am?  Do I live every day to its fullest with no regrets?  How do I become what I want to be?  How do I know what I want to be?  Who do I want to be?  What do I want to do …and here we are again…and again…and again.  Me, myself and I have been having the same discussion over and over and over again, all my life.  This week I have been slammed repeatedly by one of the phrase’s I’ve caught myself asking myself; it’s Einsteins definition of insanity that provokes my thoughts ~ Doing the same things over and over again and expecting a different result?  Why do I live a life of “insanity?”  Why do I keep doing the same things over and over again and think that somehow, something will change?  Wow…flashback 9 weeks!  Except now I am armed with some answers and a whole new train of thought…a whole new plan of action.  Yeah, I know, I’m kind of a slow learner.  I got to take things apart and figure out how they work.  *Flashback to taking a TV completely apart when I was like 10.*  I still haven’t figured out if this is a good trait or a bad one, but I know now that I am taking on the biggest challenge that I have ever had; taking apart me and my brain and learning about what makes me tick.  I am not content anymore living my life as I am, for now I have come to understand that I have the power to design the life that I want.  “I have lived as an onion plant.  It has not pleased me.”  Please understand that I do feel that I have been blessed by what has been bestowed upon me.  I am in full gratitude of what I have, it is just that upon learning what I have in the last 9 weeks, I want to bring my life to a whole new level.  I also understand that in order to do this, I must answer the questions at the beginning of this post, right or wrong, a decision about those questions MUST be made if I am to have a starting point.  I have ALWAYS struggled with and even ignored the “how do I know my life’s purpose” question.  Never have I committed to answer it, until today.  It has been proven that decisive people are successful, indecisive people, well let’s just say “not so much.”  😉  I commit now to start making decisions, even if they turn out to be wrong, I will see the positive in the fact that at least I finally committed to making a decision.  I will no longer let fear dictate me to not make a decision.  “Your dream is calling, your dream is calling” keeps echoing in my head after Mark J responded to my request for help and guidance.  I have started to ‘listen’ to try to hear my dream that is calling.  I would like to share something that I have learned and will be concentrating on now.  How to know my life’s purpose: 1 – Who Am I? 2 – What Do I Do?  (What is the one thing right now that I feel supremely qualified to teach other people?) 3 – Who Do I Do It For? 4 – What Do Those People Want or Need? 5 – What Did They Get Out Of It – How Did They Change or Transform As A Result Of It? Doesn’t that make things a little more simple?  *grinning* …wait, were you able to answer all 5 questions?  Nope, I couldn’t, can’t…but I do know now that I am going to get the answers to all of them.  They might not even be what I really want, but I won’t know that until I try!  I also now know the fact that since I can’t answer all 5 questions, I am going to spend some time “sitting” and “listening” to “hear” or to be guided to the answers, to “hear” my dream that is calling. I also want to share with you a video that my friend and business partner Daniel Fenton shared with me.  God bless him for once again materializing something for me that created another “aha” moment in my life.  We were taught in our lesson this week about how our brain works, about how we think and process information differently between the right side and the left side of our brain and how the ‘bridges’ connect this information together for us.  We were also informed on how we are connected to Universal Mind and to each other.  Can you imagine a brain scientist having a massive stroke and as it is happening you are able to live this, although incredibly horrifying, incredibly insightful, step by step with her?  This is a powerful, revealing, educational video that has brought me up to yet another level of understanding.  It, once again, validates that what I am a part of in the MKMMA (Master Key Master Mind Alliance) is truly one of the most incredible experiences in my life. God bless you, as he has me, and my hope is that you will reach out to me and share your feelings, journeys and educations with me, as I have with you.  I look forward to hearing from you. Believe Rip

Week 8 – Attitude and Determination

Week 8…already two months in?  I took my birthday off and made it into a “me” day, a real “me” day.  My concentration was placed on getting much of the things done that I had to and I actually became happy with myself again.  I also realized that I am very hard on myself with what is called the “red pencil” syndrome – looking more to beat myself up over not having done things that I should have rather than appreciating what I did get done.  Rewind this thinking to grade school: why do teachers grade with a red pencil making X’s on the wrong answers and count those rather than grading with a green pencil and making check marks on the right answers and counting those?  Why are we taught to “conform” to what society deems as socially acceptable verses to be guided to follow our own path and chase our bliss?  My eyes were opened again this week by someone who revealed themselves to me in a completely different light as I had ever expected…Jim Carrey addressed the Maharishi University of Management’s class of 2014 with a commencement address that made me question the very being of who I am.  My attitude, that had just been one of knowledge and understanding, has just taken a turn toward wanting to learn and understand more.  For if my view and understanding of Jim Carrey is so far off, how much, how many other things that I think I know are just not simply so?

So much of what he says resonates with me and my journey with the MKMMA, that it actually put me back into deep thought and analysis of my life.  My attitude has to be about me and improving me, to the point of knowing there is nothing else I can do than to put my nose to the grindstone and determine that I will get this done!

I am still trying very hard to not give my opinion but when they do slip out, I am at least aware of it…most of the time.  In addition to that this week, I am on a mental diet of not allowing any negativity to pass through my lips, yikes!  This was an awesome quick clip from The Bob Newhart Show (am I showing my age now?) that hits the nail right on the head about our bad habits:

“Form the habit of analyzing every thought.  If it is necessary, if it’s manifestation in the objective will be a benefit, not only to yourself but to all whom it may affect in anyway, keep it; treasure it; it is of value; it is in tune with the Infinite; it will grow and develop and produce fruit an hundred fold.”

Bless you and thank you for being here with me.

Week 7 – Observations and The Mental Diet

This week has been a bit of a blur and a bit of a cyclone for me.  Time past this week even faster than it normally seems to.  Was it because of all the actions I am now being guided to take for my lessons, that have seemed to multiply so quickly, that I have slipped behind with, or is it because I am either on the brink, or in the brink of the unknown?  I feel out of my element, out of my comfort zone and a little bit confused, out of control…okay maybe a lot out of control.  Is it because I am moving a little bit away from the known in my own life.  (or is it because our bedroom is torn apart for renovations….honey??? 😉  I keep learning more and more about me and, quite honestly, there are things that I Love, there are things that I not so love, and the things that I not so Love, I am improving upon.  *GASP* … yes….okay I admit it.  I see habits that I have formed in a new light recently and this has made me realize that it is time to replace some habits!

* The most important of all factors in my life is the mental diet on which I live. It is the food which I furnish to my mind that determines the whole character of my life. It is the thoughts I allow myself to think, the subjects that I allow myself to dwell upon, which make me and my surroundings what they are. As thy days, so shall thy strength be. Everything in my life today – the state of my body, whether healthy or sick, the state of my fortune, whether prosperous or impoverished, the state of my home, whether happy or the reverse, the present condition of every phase of my life in fact – is entirely conditioned by the thoughts and feelings which I have entertained in the past, by the habitual tone of my past thinking.  The condition of my life tomorrow, and the next week, and next year, will be entirely conditioned by the thoughts and feelings which I choose to entertain from now onwards. In other words, I choose my life, that is to say, I choose all the conditions of my life, when I choose the thoughts upon which I allow my mind to dwell. Thought is the real causative force in life, and there is no other. I cannot have one kind of mind and another kind of environment. This means that I cannot change my environment while leaving my mind unchanged, nor — and this is the supreme key to life, can I change my mind without my environment changing too. This then is the real key to life: If I change my mind my conditions must change too – my body must change, my daily work or other activities must change; my home must change; the color-tone of my whole life must change – for whether I can be habitually happy and cheerful, or low-spirited and fearful, depends entirely on the quality of the mental food upon which I diet myself. Emmet Fox wants me to be very clear about this.  If I change my mind my conditions must change too. We are transformed by the renewing of our minds. So now I will see that my mental diet is really the most important thing in my whole life.

YIKES!!!…  Wait….WhAt?  I Can Be What I Will To Be!  An honest accounting of me is in the process here now.  Hmmmm, might be why my current mindset is as such, eh?  I’m attempting to stay positive, even when I catch myself being negative…I can be what I will to be.  I am attempting to “diet” but keep catching myself either giving my unasked for opinion or being less than positive.  I love an analogy I read about catching yourself being negative, like as an ember would pop out of the fire onto your sleeve, if you can brush it away quickly, no harm…but if you allow it to stay smouldering on your sleeve, you will have to pay the consequences.  Catch yourself being negative…..say SQUIRREL!….Change mindset to positive…and smile!  Smiling people are awesome!  How will I confront each whom I meet?  In only one way.  In silence and to myself I will address him/her and say I Love You.  Though spoken in silence these words will shine in my eyes, unwrinkle my brow, bring a smile to my lips, and echo in my voice; and his/her heart will be opened.  Yup, it sure did!!!??? … and it still brings a smile to my face remembering some of my “I Love You moments 😉  It makes me smile when I look at some of my guys, they are talking away and all-of-a-sudden I think, Hey, I Love You….oh heck….I’ve even manned up and SAID it a few times….it was awesome!

So I have a challenge for you, I dare you…I double dog dare you! ….DARE ALERT!

Address someone silently, look them in the eyes and just think I Love You at them…just try to tell me that you don’t break out in a big ole smile!? (if you didn’t, now you have to SAY it to them outloud, look them square in the eye and SAY I Love You!  Tell me that doesn’t bring out a big ole smile) Most people it will.

Report back here and leave a reply.  I would love to hear the stories, and you will be bringing me a smile with each story I read.  Since smiling people are awesome, the bringer of the smiles is the creator of awesome … be the bringer of smiles, let your awesomeness shine through today.

Dare to be different and start your “dance,” your movement!



Week 6 – Fight, FiGhT, FIGHT!

This week I had to step back a bit and try to regroup.  Everything seems to be up-side-down and in-side-out.  My mind feels scrambled.  This is the 2nd week of the


and I have been awaken to a habit of mine that I am not so much of a fan of.  I spew my opinion everywhere, on everyone and with no apparent provocation.  Yesterday while my daughter, wife and I were out to dinner, I worked very hard to keep my opinion to myself.  Multiple times I stopped myself mid-sentence, mid-opinion.  I was commended by my daughter after the dinner on how enjoyable it was, I was.  She said it was so nice that I wasn’t injecting into our conversation what I would have said or what I would have done.  Wait…what?!  Yup.  I am still basking in the glory of just this one little achievement.

Earlier, I had acquired a parking pass that I chose to give to an elderly couple that was leaving the hospital with us.  It cost us $5 for our parking.  As we were settling into our seats at the restaurant, a woman leaving dropped a certificate onto our table and smiled.  My wife picked it up and just the expression on her face was priceless.  You’re not going to believe this, she said, here’s your $5 back from the parking ticket you gave away!?

I know I am doing what I need to and what I should be now.  The incredible guidance of the MKMMA has kept me engaged and on course.  It is because of signs and successes that I have decided to stay the course!  It is not easy.  I have my victories and I have my failures, but I know that for the man in the mirrors future, I have no option but to continue.

Here’s a video that just re-enforces what the MKMMA is doing to help us and our lives.  Most of the time it felt like she was talking to and about me.  Romila “Dr. Romie” Mushtaq, MD is a traditionally trained neurologist and an expert in the field of mind-body medicine.  I hope it means as much to you as it does to me when you watch it.  

Week 5 – There is Going To Be A Fight

I understand a little bit more about what is going on now.  My old blueprint, my subconscious, it, they, are ganging up on me.  They are overwhelming me.  Wait, what?  Does that mean that I am trying to overwhelm myself?  They are trying to make me quit so they can call themselves back to the ‘A’ team.  Nope, not going to happen.  They are benched!  Take a back seat my ‘old’ “friends.”  There is a new habit forming in town…and it is called the new Rip.  “I walk tall among men and they know me not, for today I am a new man, with a new life.”  There is going to be a fight and I know I am going to win.  I’ll work through whatever I must to get you out of my life.  You are no good to me anymore.  You are no good FOR me anymore.  I choose to trade my bad habits in for good ones.  “For it is another of nature’s laws that only a habit can subdue another habit.”  I CAN BE WHAT I WILL TO BE!

This week I was ‘suppose to’ “Unless directly asked, give NO OPINIONS.  Period.  Be the non-judgmental OBSERVER.”  Hmmmm…how is that going for you this week Rip?  Ummm, do I have to be honest?  I am failing, miserably.  I’m not sure that I say much more than my opinions.  I have a very hard time talking and I have a very hard time not talking.  What is an opinion?  How do people put up with me?  Why do I offer my opinion if no one asks?  Am I a better person for being a non-judgmental observer?  Yikes…I got lots of questions running around in my head, no wonder I feeling a little overwhelmed.  Never gave these issues a second thought after they got “programed” into me.  I love all this new “stuff”!

I watched a movie this week: “Finding Joe”  It blew me away.  You know, we truly do not know what we do not know.

Years ago I was on a mission to find out financially how to handle my money and prepare for retirement.  I would not accept putting my money in tax qualified plans, my money invested that still needed to have taxes taken from it, screw that!…or the stock market investing plan…nope!  I found, I understand now because I put out to the universe what I was looking for and it answered me, a ‘secret’ for how to structure finances for living and retirement.  After finding this, I remember asking why everyone didn’t know about this and why isn’t everyone doing this?  So it became my passion to share.  I am so fortunate again, but wait, I was sick and tired of being sick and tired, so I put out to the universe again, that I wanted to learn how to make permanent changes in my life, and BOOM, MKMMA appears.  While watching “Finding Joe” another similar feeling surfaced, why doesn’t everyone know about this?  Later in this film my question was answered!  “Most people on the planet live under a kinda mass hypnosis. There’s a tremendous pressure, even in the media, on really keeping people in their place, in the sense of keeping them happy, tranced-out consumers. It’s a trance of comfort, it’s a trance of not sticking your head up above the crowd very much, that keeps the enterprise going.”  WOW!  Thank you so much Mark and Davene and everyone else related to the MKMMA for helping and allowing me to stick my head way up above the crowd and breaking me out of my “trance.”


Week 4 – Fighting Back

Support and words of wisdom have re-vitalized me and okay, maybe confused me also.  Thank-you to Dawn, Mark, Sandra, Patti, Shelby, Patricia, Dan (actually called me) and Lauri for your support.  It means the world to me.

Mark’s reply has hit me between the eyes: Your dream is calling… your dream is calling…..fear of the unknown masquerades in many ways….

This fatigue [real but what was the cause?] …self pity… etc… I KNOW that spot…and then, by hanging in there [and asking for help, BRAVO] …I had a moment of truth beyond intellect… a moment of naked honesty and really, was left with 2 choices… continue my “socially acceptable” self destructive behavior …..or own the idea that I simply did not know what I truly wanted…..you’re doing great… your honesty here is wonderful and the handmaiden to greatness… so I say again… and live with this….

“are my actions to set up these overwhelming conditions a result of me not listening to my dream that is calling?”

 Okay, I have lived with this.  With complete honesty I can definitely say that I know this to be true, I have set up overwhelming conditions as a result of me not listening to my dream that is calling. Now I want to know how do I hear the dream that is calling?  How do I define the gift that I have been given that I want to focus on and share with the world?
I have so much “CEMENT” to get off of me!

Week 3 – It’s Hard, I’m Overwhelmed

Yikes!>?  What did I get myself into???

I can’t even seem to get my thoughts assembled into any kind of arrangement so I am just going to start writing… Frustrated…trying to stay with the lessons…things were somewhat moving along in a forward direction until I went to visit my wife and then my son and his girlfriend this week…and then kaos…out of my sort-of “normal” routine… Overwhelmed…by lessons and readings and book vocabulary modifications and “sits” and DMP progressions and blog post and following others and commenting and deadlines approaching and index cards and what’s this tweet thing and how do I see other posts…I’m falling behind…how do I …..Okay stop…take a breath…     I need to compose myself. I feel like I am falling apart. My normal is not normal anymore. Is this what is supposed to be happening? I started in control, what happened? What changed? Is this happening to anyone else? I’m ready to step away…anyone else? Okay, I’m not ready to step away…I want to change…am I on the brink of change? How far away am I from change? I don’t want to continue as I was, is this part of my change? I want to change…is it going to get harder…easier…who is in control now? Am I a mess or WHAT???

This week has been a trip, figuratively and literally. I’m not sure if it is this way by design or if it is just me. I have had some realizations and some lessons, that is for sure. I am hoping to rein in the control as I am back at home, back at safe and secure, back at the old routine…for now. I’m not liking the lack of control that seemed to sneak in. I want to be aware of what is going on in both my conscious and my subconscious. I spend a lot of time working on my DMP…I am not a fan but I know now of its power. This so much reminds me of school but the information is startling. I’m pressing on, ready for change.

Week 2 – Getting Real

Wow…I’m not even sure where or how to start.  It is said that we truly do not know what we do not know.  Lately, things have happened in my life that I truly had no way to explain.  Things happened that did not make sense to me. I remember replaying the situations to family and friends only to end with blank or confused expressions on our faces. “Wow, that’s just weird or freaky.” I have started reading and studying the Master Key Master Mind Alliance Experience Program and now…things are starting to fall into a little bit more of a certain order…take a certain order, or I guess what I am trying to say is that they are starting to make a little bit more sense to me.  My subconscious has had a huge role in my life and I really didn’t even know.  I mean, I think I didn’t know, did I?  Yeah…it’s something like that.  An eye-opening experience that is starting to correlate the things that happen in my life to the “why.”  We start as children that don’t have any filters, no guidelines, no restrictions of what we can do, what we can have, what we can be or become, or what we can accomplish. Then, sadly, the older we become, the more restrictions we place on ourselves and the more we take away our own dreams from ourselves. The saddest part is that we don’t even know that we are doing it. How profound to have this revealed? Check this out: the decision for whether I succeed or fail is completely my own. Wait…what? Why would I “decide” to fail? How about because I didn’t even know? It was a slow process that I did not even realize was happening. Habit. Habits. Bad habits that crept into my life, made and make me who I am, and are actually self-sabotaging me. Wait! Stop! How can I “fix” it? Common sense dictates to ‘simply’ change your habits. Wait for it…the million-dollar question: “HOW?” MKMMA. MasterKey MasterMind Alliance. I am completely blown away by this step-by-step, hands on, help available from a personal certified guide that only has what I want to accomplish in their best interest, program. I’m ready! This is so awesome!

Week 1 – Here We Go…

Okay, …it has started, …I have started. Rolling up my sleeves and getting ready to start this journey. The readings are already hitting home with me. Life is aligning things for me that is answering some of my questions and pointing me toward taking this journey. Who am I to ignore these signs. I will embrace them.

First webinar was very informative and I will admit that being back in ‘school’ has re-ignited my feelings from the ‘era’ of me being in school. I am nervous, okay I am scared, and a little worried about the course, the course load, homework and getting into the groove. First big assignment of developing my DMP (Definite Major Purpose) has me very concerned. I got it done but know that it is not anywhere near what it needs to be.  I feel very confused, like I have been for most of my life, but also just realized that is probably why I am where I am because I have never been able to determine or been able to learn how to set my sites on the big picture of what it is that I want. What a change it will be for me if I am able to learn how to identify what I want most of out of my life. I could actually have a focus on which to keep my sites on. Something, quite honestly, I have been missing out on my whole life. Don’t get me wrong, there were times that I knew what I wanted but those were more short term, quick gratifications; driver’s license, passing courses, certification tests, etc.  Who knew that this type of goal, goal setting, having a DMP, could have such strong effects on someones life. A journey of a thousand miles starts with just one step. I took my first step earlier tonight, stand by for the week by week description of my journey. It looks like it is going to be legend…….wait for it….ary.